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I am a mother of three, sharing my journey of hope and survival following the loss of our son...

  • Birthday Girl

      When I was nearly four, I begged to change my birth date to a different one; I wanted to make it the same as my grandfather’s in March.   I was inconsolable when Momma told me it wasn’t possible…   Later I decided it should be the same as my grandmother’s in January, believing this would fly since her birthday happened to be a mere two days before mine.   Needless to say, I was denied again.   It was one of the first occasions when...

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  • One holiday closer

      A while ago I read somewhere that those who refuse to take time off to rest will eventually be forced to make the time to be sick…       Unfortunately, it’s happened to me enough during this time of year that I have to admit I am one of those people…       Evidently I relaxed just enough on Christmas Eve to let a bug or my allergies take control…   I guess I was so relieved at having completed my h...

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  • Holiday madness

    December 2009 Decorations adorn every store…street corner…more than a few passing cars…   It’s the unifying theme on television…radio…newsprint…   The holiday season is undeniably underway…our second minus one… All I want to do is hide.   The onslaught is relentless and inescapable, assaulting every sense I possess.  

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  • Hello, it's B

    December, 2009 Even though I cannot see the wind, I know that it is there…   I’ve said so from the very beginning…   Sometimes, I feel him, like he’s hiding nearby, just beyond my line of sight…   Today, I am sure of it… Another day, another school, another chance to make a difference, closer to home this time…  

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  • Fools and Forgiveness

    November 2009 If being angry brands you a fool, then so be it…   Call me whatever.   But if it’s action in the heat of the moment that makes it so, then I’m not.   Yet.   Physical distance prevented a hasty response on my part; perhaps given enough time, the urge for action will pass.  

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  • In Everything...

    Thanksgiving, November 2006 …give thanks.   1 Thessalonians 5:18 Wow.   Tough one.   Easier said than done.   I’ve been working on it for quite a while now.   2 years and 25 weeks to be exact.

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  • Adrift

    November, 2009 Autumn leaves blanket the driveway and yard, assurance of the season’s end close at hand...   I watch as he blows them off our beaten path, an exercise in futility, for a newly emancipated crop drifts lazily down behind him…   John presses on, nevertheless…resolute, determined, intent upon conquering the piles, if only for that single moment of feeling...

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  • Thanks, I have my own...

    November 18, 2009 At least a decade before I noticed others doing it, I used paper towels or toilet paper to turn off public bathroom faucets and open doors; I also began using my own pen to sign things or fill out paperwork at doctor’s appointments, schools, the bank, grocery store, wherever...

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  • What matters

    November, 2009 This winding road is strewn with casualties of the darkness…   The promise of a shorter, kinder pathway through the valley of shadows and sorrow tempts at every turn, but the side roads are filled with pitfalls and stumbling blocks, ultimately leading nowhere.

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  • Words from the heart...

    November 11, 2010 Dear friends, Today marks two years and five months since everything changed.   Eight hundred and ninety one endless days… Passing his closed bedroom door… Staring at his empty chair… Listening for the sound of his voice…   Struggling to live this life without Brian in it… It is the hardest thing we have ever been forced to do…...

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