Paying It Forward
By Kirsten Valle
Posted: Wednesday, Dec. 23, 2009
Photo by Critsey Rowe
Kirsten Valle is a business reporter for the Observer. She can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Read more "Getting to 'I do.'"
Christmas feels a little different this year, and its not just because of all the bittersweet new traditions that come with being engaged.To start with the obvious, theres more shopping. For the fiance himself (Is it just me, or are guys incredibly difficult to shop for? I seem to learn this again every year ) and his family. But, to me, there are few things more fun than picking out Christmas gifts, wrapping them in rich reds and greens and golds and doling them out around a lighted tree.With the shopping has come some interesting lessons, mainly about shopping styles. Growing up, I shopped just like my father: go in with a plan, choose something and get the heck out of there. My mom, on the other hand, is a contemplative shopper, carefully examining the items and then leaving the store to think about it before coming back to buy them.Reese, as I learned on a recent trip to SouthPark, is more of a wanderer, browsing until he finds the perfect gift. As I darted down the mall corridors, swerving around slow walkers and dodging overloaded shopping bags, Reese was calm as ever. I couldnt believe that a few days before Christmas he still didnt know what he wanted to get for half the people on his list. He assured me, though, that this is just his style. He always gets it done, and he always chooses good gifts. Its true, although no less baffling.Aside from these ever-important shopping lessons, something else has changed this year: Ive felt more sentimental and far more concerned about what Im getting others and how Im helping the less fortunate. Maybe this is because of the economy, which has a funny way of bringing us down to earth and helping us realize the importance of simplicity and the people we love most. Maybe its the season, which is always drenched in the spirit of giving. Or maybe its finally being old enough to really understand it.But I think a large part, too, is the engagement that feeling of being blissfully in love, mixed with my own irrational fear that no one deserves to be this happy. Im a worrier by nature, and sometimes I catch myself in the midst of a carefree moment wondering how long it can possibly last before something terrible happens. This is a little silly, and probably unhealthy, I know. But its also made me reflect on how lucky I am, how important it is to savor those happy moments and how important it is to pay the feeling forward.For me, paying it forward has been a series of small efforts this year: donating warm winter gear to a church clothing drive, for instance, or throwing a few extra dollars in the charity gift baskets. Not much, I know, especially compared to the countless others who are more generous all year round. But maybe these small efforts whether its a dollar here and there, or a smile to a stranger on the street are bigger and more significant than we realize.In a few days, as I gather for Christmas dinner with my family and Reeses, Ill try to adopt a little more of Reeses calm, easy-going style and try to better express the way I feel about the ones I love. Mostly, Ill try to simply revel in the moments handing out those shiny wrapped gifts, feasting on ridiculous amounts of turkey and green bean casserole, laughing with family and friends without worrying so much about the future. Happy holidays and safe travels to all!
The Charlotte Observer welcomes your comments on news of the day. The more voices engaged in conversation, the better for us all, but do keep it civil. Please refrain from profanity, obscenity, spam, name-calling or attacking others for their views.
Have a news tip? You can send it to a local news editor; email email@example.com to send us your tip - or - consider joining the Public Insight Network and become a source for The Charlotte Observer.Read moreRead less