Mixed feelings

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In just two days my friends and I will be leaving for Disney World. I am beyond excited and the little kid in me is continuously asking “Are we there yet?” As eager as I am to leave, the closer I get to going away, the more I have mixed feelings. Don’t get more wrong, I am really looking forward to the trip. My best friend and I haven’t been on vacation since college and I love her sister (who is coming with us). At the same time, it’s been a while since Robert and I have been apart.

Half of our relationship has been long distance, and as this trip is only for six days, it’s not that I’m finding it hard to leave. Actually, up until this weekend I was acting big and bad about it. I didn’t think a few days apart would faze me. After all, I’m the type that recognizes a little distance, particularly when you are indulging in your separate hobbies, is good for a relationship. But the closer we’ve gotten to the trip, the more I’ve realized how much I’ll miss him.

Whether you’re married or just living together, seeing someone every day is comforting. Your partner knows your habits, your fears, and your quirks. You’re used to having the other person around, and when he/she isn’t there, it just feels strange. Even though I haven’t left yet, the idea of him not being around just feels… odd.

I know that I’m going to have an amazing trip and I’m sure Robert will enjoy the one-on-one time with his Xbox. Actually, if things go to plan, one of Robert’s friends is coming into town and he is having a guys’ weekend. So I’m not the only one who will be having some time with friends.

As they have been saying for years, absence makes the heart grow fonder. It may be an outdated and overused quote, but it’s true. A little space will do us good, and when I get back, we’ll have plenty of quality time together. Mind you, after he sees all of the Disney memorabilia I’m going to bring home, he might send me away again. I can at least say I won’t get into too much trouble, right?

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