Another calendar year has come to an end, the pages fanning forward faster than I can ever recall… Although I know the actual passage of time remains constant, it feels as if it’s accelerating with every passing minute…
Although we don’t define the years of our lives this way now, I can’t help but stop on New Year’s Eve (like the rest of the world) to consider the last three hundred and sixty five days…
If there was a single unifying theme to be found amongst them, it would have to be excessive busyness. My family stayed on the go, all the time, working, working, working… The primary goal obviously was a paycheck, to be delivered now or well down the road; at times, the purpose was education, to advance and achieve career objectives; health insurance was also an end of the means. Unfortunately, recreation was in short supply across the board…
Was it because of the uncertain times and difficult economic conditions? Or was it an ongoing escape from grief, unabated? Has it simply become a habit for all inhabiting our home?
I believe it is all of the above and then some…finding our way through this dark valley is excruciating and complicated…
Last year’s eve, I professed my hope to remember and more fully appreciate the ‘times in-between’, the ordinary commonplace moments that make up most of life. Was I successful? Not in the least. I ran around at warp speed, certain I would pass myself coming or going at some point, being far too busy, driven onward by my never ending to-do list, like most of the people I know.
I continually try to change my ways, to slow it down, but I can’t seem to make it stick. With any of us.
Maybe I’m taking the wrong approach; maybe I need to make a different change than the one I’m thinking…
Maybe I need to re-think a lot of things…
“To finish the moment, to find the journey’s end in every step of the road, to live the greatest number of good hours, is wisdom.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Wishing you many blessings and hope…tg
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