I have to begin by making an admission: I really enjoy indulging in sweets (especially chocolate, my weakness!) and lounging on the couch after a long day of teaching. I’m also really nervous about writing a blog that documents my successes and failures with weight loss. Unfortunately, I also have 50 pounds to lose, and I’m getting married in 13 months -- so I’m putting it all out there on the line. In order to be the “blushing bride” of my dreams, this bride is going to have to shrink her waistline first! I know too well what it is like to feel uncomfortable in everything you wear and to be terrified at the thought of 150 people watching you on your wedding day, feeling overweight and self-conscious. In fact, after recently experiencing my first wedding dress trial, I know that overcoming insecurity is going to be harder than I thought.
While most girls love the big wedding fantasy, the idea of 150 people coming to celebrate my wedding seems perfectly terrifying. As much as I adore my fiancee, Erik, I’m embarrassed to say that I don’t want people coming to celebrate ‘big me’ on my big day. When I realized I was afraid to commit to the big event of my dreams, I knew it was time for a colossal adjustment of perspective. I’m excited to take on this challenge and to make a lifestyle change. Not only do I want to fit the image in my mind of the beautiful bride, but I also want to overcome a struggle with weight loss and insecurity. I’ve been dealing with yo-yo weight loss and gain for ten years, since a thyroid problem helped me put on the weight at age 17. Since then, I have tried anything and everything to drop the weight; from Weight Watchers to dieticians, to trainers, meal plans and crash diets — and now it is time to be committed to making my physical well-being a top priority.
For the past two years I have been both a full-time teacher and full-time graduate student here in Charlotte and have let my health and fitness fall to the wayside. When my fiance Erik proposed in April, I knew it was crunch time (literally and figuratively)! We’ve picked a date and venue: July 13, 2013 at Trump National Golf Club in Mooresville. That means I have 13 months to make healthy changes. I am busy prepping for the hard work that comes with shifting to a more fit lifestyle, and I’m very lucky to have wonderful friends and family willing to support me.
I have just gotten started on this journey; I recently began seeing a trainer every week, and have gotten back into a four times per week workout schedule. I am working on making healthier food choices and battling bad habits, and I’m getting back into the ever-time-consuming calorie-counting routine. I’m going to need all the motivation, determination and encouragement that can be mustered (and certainly a sense of humor!) -- and I can only hope that my journey will inspire others that it can be done!