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Finding Fifty

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September 25, 2009

I admit it…  I procrastinated until the last possible moment.  I’ve been forced to deal with so many things over the last 15 months that I pushed this one to the maximum time limit…avoidance at its finest.  If not for our CPA Marvin’s call, I’d still be blissfully ignoring it all…  Since the extension expires in less than a week, I can wait no more…

I forced myself to go up to the pink room and hauled the two overflowing tubs of paperwork out of the closet.  Hidden within the massive piles of paper were the necessary financial details of our lives from 2008.  As well as many agonizing reminders of the day everything changed and its aftermath…

I sat down in the middle of the rug, dumped everything out and began sorting the various items into piles by month…  The first half of the year was pretty much organized already; the latter half, well…it was a hot mess, reflective of my world since then…  My mind wandered away from the task at hand; maybe if I didn’t pay close attention to what I was doing, the insurance papers, receipts, and other scraps of paper wouldn’t cause me as much pain…

I started thinking about the fundraiser a friend mentioned on Facebook yesterday…  She was arranging a memorial walk for a family in California who lost their son, daughter and twin grandsons all at once in a drunk-driving car accident this past May.  They had no life insurance coverage on any of them; I know how hard the financial burden has been for us.  I can only imagine it times four…  Like so many others in this economic environment, we have been dealing with cutbacks and tightening our belts.  I decided I wanted to contribute at least $50 but didn't know where I would find room in our budget right now, so I sent up a little prayer asking for assistance.  “Lord, I really want to do this but I don't know how.  Please help me find a way.” 

A short while later, I found a card buried between bank statements; it was addressed to me.  I didn't recognize it from the outside.  As I pulled the card from the envelope, fifty dollars literally fell into my lap.  It read “Happy Mother's Day, Mom.  I <3 you.  Here's $50 for an hour with Robert. <3, Beth”  The card was from Mother's Day in May, 2008.

Afterward, I remembered Beth giving me the card & money.  But I had no recollection of it prior to that exact moment...  

I have NEVER in my life misplaced $20, much less $50!  I’m not sure what that says about me exactly…  But the fact that it was a card from Mother's Day…and my petition was to show me how to help another grieving mother…and it was for the exact amount I hoped to send…

Some people may call me crazy, but I know He answered my request…  In His way, with His perfect timing, as usual…

Wishing you hope…tg

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