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The big 4-0

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January 7, 2009

 

Finally.  This is it…the last special occasion for a while.  Our handling of the holidays…not a pretty sight, with emotions and behaviors swinging from wildly frantic highs to lows of surrealistic calm…

 

So here I am…the big 40…looking and feeling about twice that...  It’s not anything like I thought it would be.  So hard for me to believe, only three hundred and sixty five days ago, we were discussing the upcoming year of milestone birthdays.  Grace turned 16, Brian would have been 18, and me, I’m officially over the hill…

As I looked out of Brian’s window this morning, staring through the barren branches into the empty landscape below, my mind’s eye pictured what surely would have been his grandest stunt ever…  A huge sign, declaring I’m past my prime, surrounded by a tremendous flock of pink flamingoes.  Maybe black balloons on the mailbox, so many options, who knows?  He loved giving me a hard time; he would have considered today a free pass to tease without mercy, declaring open season on the old woman…

I usually bake an almond pound cake for my birthday, but this year Beth went to extraordinary lengths to have one made for me instead.  It was fashioned to look like a giant Tiffany & Co. gift box, right down to the signature blue color and white bow.  John and the girls gave me a new pink Life is Good tee shirt which declared ‘Take your sweet time’; the sentiment is right on as time passes differently for me these days…  We celebrated my birthday dinner at Outback, running into our friends Robert & Sherri; Robert immediately joined John in reminding me I’ve entered their decade, forties, forties, 4-0…  Brian would have been soooo proud of them announcing it to the restaurant!  What they don’t realize is I’ve been old my entire life, only I cannot remember such a wide spread between my actual age and my effective one before now…

My family tried so hard to make my birthday special, and I love them for it.  But really, the best part about today is actually having it behind us.  Not because I despise the number of years I have accumulated, but rather it signifies the end of the cruelest stretch of firsts to date…

Wishing you blessings and hope…tg

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